A Prose Poem.

June 8, 2011

Eagleton says the only difference between prose and poetry is line endings. So decide for yourself what ‘this’ is. I have never carried any regrets with me except this one – how much I foolishly gave to you.

I don’t regret many things in life, but I do regret how much I gave to you. I am deeply in love with someone new now but, still, your hold on me isn’t as slight as I would like. I still compare my heart, then, to my heart now – as if, not hurting, not breaking, I cannot feel. I feel empty in those colossal seconds in a day when I compare the two of you. He is my whole world, you were just the stars – out of reach, not even worth the time of day, though I’d have given you a week. And though I’m happy now, (not that I can comfortably be – you robbed me of that when you lied and said you would love me) giving my heart to him doesn’t feel as easy as it once could have, before you crushed it underfoot and another, sweet but sterile, hastily reassembled it in the blustery pockets of summer. He promised to love me too, autumn robbed me of that, and now I find myself in love with someone else, I have to say – I don’t regret many things in life, but I do regret how much I thought I loved you.


Head to toe

June 4, 2011

 

My rhyme is broken, my syntax heavy,

The days of poesy disappeared

I cling to the blinking cursor, waiting, it seems,

Curiously questioning –

Where are those words you entered here

To fill the space

To fill the void

Where are those words which used to mean

Used to be, used to open out your heart

A gallery of words.

Beauty fails me now, like it always did,

Fragments of misapprehended feeling

That’s all my words mean now

The only difference, the only, lone, sole, transitory difference

Is I no longer need to mean

Except when I’m with you.


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